In my twenties I decided to go to graduate school to earn a master’s degree in organizational psychology, where I learned how to fix broken businesses and the people who worked for them. While I was in grad school, I was also consulting businesses, while simultaneously starting a dental practice with my ex-husband.
While that practice went on to produce over a million dollars after the first year, and I was able to help many businesses go on to be successful, I was completely running on burn-out, and it was due to fear. I put all of my energy and attention into work, afraid that I wouldn't make it, that my efforts wouldn't bring back return, that I'd be poor, etc..; that I lost my balance.
I wasn't happy in my life, my marriage, my career, or myself. The moment of greatest transformation began when I realized one day that I was 40 pounds overweight, when it seemed like it happened overnight, and I couldn't believe I didn't even notice until I got there.
I had achieved so much in my twenties, but I was lacking emotional and physical balance, and realized that I had been suffering from a low-grade fear of success, accompanied by a dull-ish, achy, fear of failure. You know, the kind where you are seemingly very confident and accomplished on the outside, but underneath you are scared to death about where you’re going, and incapable of moving forward.